what i am doing with my life

well, Im headed back to carleton p soon. I'm bringing all my music equipment with me, but only so that I can do shows there. Someone from my school found out about [The Rap Album] and pretty much shouted it out everywhere. So yeah, I've got a following i guess? idk. Somebody told me that they were getting high and listening to it with friends, and that made me really happy because thats the kind of stuff i want people to do with my music. Idk, i'm just glad my marketing-by-not-marketing worked so well with the 18-24 year old demographic.

Because like thats the thing. I don't want my music to be discovered on the radio. I want my music to be something you stumble upon at 3am, something that your friend sends you and its only got 1000 views on youtube. Something that one guy you know really likes and you think, "idk, maybe i'll check that out." Idk, If you hear a song of mine on the radio, its gonna be a song you didn't know about and you'll wonder why you think its so good and then you'll be like "OH WAIT x^2 MADE THIS FUCK". Idk, something like that.

So yeah, the reason the "x^2 is bored" pretty much stopped was laziness, album release, and now I have to pack up my shit to send it all to college. I'm sure I will be able to make videos when I'm at college tho, even if I'm not gonna do any new song writing. But i've got some stuff in the works. I've been thinkin about new songs for sure. Idk if i'm gonna try to workshop material that i made two years ago and release it anymore tho (even tho i got a fuckload of material I could do that with), cause thats what the rap album was and idk if i was happy with the way it turned out. I wanna make new shit now. Idk, maybe you will get the rest of 2012-2013 x^2 at some point. I've been listening to alot of twinklecore recently. Its gonna be rad.

Anyway, see ya'll later! Keep it real, and remember to send an email to theneedledrop.wnpr@gmail.org and tell him to review my album. See you in a couple months, maybe even sooner! Love ya to death!

back to english

wow that japanese is rly bad. i dont remember when i posted that but i already see errors in it. Fuck language is hard.

But yeah this fucking note every day thing has failed because I care so little about it. I'm almost note putting notes in just to spite it. Idk. I'm just not giving it the tlc is deserves. I'm still gonna try to release it though and ride it out. I also did some calculations and i put two extra days in the year so yeah lol.

anyway, I fucking like have to study and shit and I'm always tired and I don;t have any fun here really. I can;t believe I dedicated my last album to this college. what a joke. My friend is right. All the people you hate in high school don;t just stop existing after you leave, they have to go somewhere. Inevitably, some of them are gonna end up here.

theres also a fuckton of depressed people here and its sad as fuck. also they are enforcing all these dumb rules and it sucks. also my existential quest for dat pussy has not been satisfied.

I might be taking a break from music for a while

Idk, I just haven't been feeling it recently. I'll try to finish mastering the new EP for August. I still havent got a new microphone shockmount yet so I can't really do any serious recording. I don't think the rap album is gonna be finished in time. Writing lyrics is so hard for me even when it's not rapping and when it is rapping it's even harder. I feel like I don't have any conceptual basis for my music right now, you know? Everything is just kind of "oh i bet this is cool" or i feel like I'm trying to hard. There's no greater point anymore, you know?

I'm thinking of doing stand up. I've been writing some material and I'm gonna try to find a comedy club open mic and preform some of it. I also might just record me telling the jokes in my room and upload that to youtube or something. I need to get some press.

Idk, it's a weird time. I feel like I've reached some pinnacle because my high school self has everything it wanted, and I haven't evolved enough to want something new. I have nothing to strive for, and I'm not dead yet. I've plateaued.

I'm not gonna try to force music out of me. If I wanna make a song I'll make it, but I'm not gonna lie to myself by making something I don't want to. I hope you all can understand that.

But I don't have like any fans so what the hell who cares.

My dad cannot hear

It is weird because all my parents are finally starting to get old and all of them are clearly losing their brain functions. My dad cannot hear for ass. My mom kinda can't think straight at all. When i become old I will retain all my higher brain functions because I read somewhere on the internet that playing board games while smoking pot increases brain function by 420% and postpones Alzheimer's infinitely. I will never get old.

I am already 108 years old which is pretty old for humans but in the species that I am it isn't very old. In the species that I am some of us live to be 420 years old. We expand our life force aura by consuming drugs. It is proven science and not a lie that I am making up because I am bored in the Midwest.

I swear to god the whole thing is just one big flat farm there is fucking nothing here at all. Except for colleges. Like fifty colleges are here all in a big pile right next to each other. It's weird. Why would anyone want to go to college here and why would anyone who lives here not want to go to college in some sexy place like San Francisco or Mars or some place that isn't fucking in the Midwest. God damnit I am so bored please help me I am dying.

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