web hosting fucking sucks

wow. 

so for like the past 48 ive been trying to get a new website. it's not that like, this blogspot is bad (like in terms of functionality), but it does kind of looks like shit. plus, there is like a bunch of dumb bullshit on here that is amusing, but its not like, professional, you know?

if im gonna do this (like this music bullshit) for a living, i should probably be professional about it. like, idk, it just seems like the right thing to do. there might not be a reason, but like, fuck it. everyone else is being professional, why shouldn't i be? 

i guess i'm caught in a bit of a crossroads right now. how seriously do i wanna take this shit? how seriously can i take myself when so much of my music as x^2 comes from a time when i didn't know what a limiter was? and i've convinced myself that im gonna keep all that music (that i made when i didn't know what a limiter was) because its like a dumb time capsule kind of thing, and its just like, if i take it all down i'd have to start from scratch building an actual catalog, and that scares me. 

because i guess, before i graduated college (which did happen btw its a long story) art was always something i did for myself. i dont wanna say i did it for fun, because sometimes it wasn't fun. i always had these pretensions about what i was doing, these higher aspirations that i was reaching for, and it didn't ever seem like other people were involved in whether or not i met those aspirations. everything was self-serving. 

but now, im realizing i guess that if i really wanna make it in this big bad world, i need to convince a sizable chunk of you that im like, worth your salt (and at least a dollar of your cash on patreon.) 

and to be quite honest, i'm not really sure how im gonna do that. 

Look how close the donate button is to your mouse

It is surprisingly close now. Only the most recent post is available to look at and there isn't an archive which is maybe not the best idea thing but I really like the fact that the donate button is so close because now people might actually be able to see it and only when they see it can they click it and give me all of their money.

I had a weird dream. I went to a Dubstep concert and some nerdy kid I know was blowing up a playground. It was kinda lame and underwhelming.

In other dubstep news, my MLP dubstep video has reached nearly 1000 views, with 661 of the views coming from the United states. That is a pretty clear act of god in my opinion, and definitely shows you wear the internet's priorities are. 931 views, it is my most viewed video of all time. Other interesting statistics include that 90 percent of people stop watching the video after the first minute, and the video is most popular with men aged over 65.

Anyway I'm still stuck in the midwest so no new content but you can watch this video of me playing "Big Buck Hunter". It's pretty friggin sexy and I get every bitches. I didn't want to talk loud though because I thought everyone on the boat would look at me weird. But after they saw my impressive Bison hunting skills they did all look at me but instead of laughing at me they said "Look at his powerful erection" and I was like "thank you it is very powerful" and then every girl sucked my dick and I am not lying at all.

Blogging is hard when you can't think of anything to blog about.

i need to go to tashi station to pick up some power converters

so today was web design day and i finally got motivated enough to work. I compiled all my accounts and password into one thing and now all the accounts for everything are linked and that's very useful to me. Also changed donation button so that it's always visible and you feel more guilty then you normally would. I'm gonna try to make it all the top of the page next to the header so that way you all will be really guilt tripped into giving me money. after all I need the ibrogaine. Also i finally set up an x^2 email account so send the racial slurs my way.

Also, how amazing was desert bus? Vlog 5 is gonna be all about that, and should be up tomorrow. If you missed it, well then, that is really unfortunate. You should tune in next year.
www.desertbus.org.